Live OR Sleep? Get up OR Give in?

Nate Siegelman
Jun 17, 2021
3 min read

👋🤷‍♂️It’s been a while, people, I know. I even tell this to myself. You might be asking, “Where is that guy who liked to make blogs and photos and other interesting stuff. Well, sometimes, I gotta get real with myself and own up to reality. So, I have tried to do that. Tried to trudge through the days. Tried to learn from the past and wake up and move on, in hopes to grow from experience. Let me tell you, it ain’t easy.

Every day, when I wake up, I have a choice to make, just like everyone else in the world: 😊Do I get up out of bed and welcome the new morning? 😪😴Or, do I sleep in?

Recently, it’s been pretty hard to choose to get up. Why? I’m not entirely sure, but I have some ideas. You might say the following are excuses, or you might see them as rational explanations. Here they are: 😕Doubt… telling myself I am not good enough; that I won’t do anything special today 😨Fear… of the people around me, of the great big world; of making a mistake or bad decision 🥱Laziness 🥶Emotionally Cold… like I need to be accepted for who I am; in need of human connection but at the same time unsure if I truly have the capacity to establish emotional connection with people on that day 😓Depression… and no, I am not using this term out of context; this does happen, it’s real and exists within other parts of my family too, and I’m sure many others experience, are diagnosed with, or have family members in depression, or have a history of depression 😴Sleep-Deprived… having lack of sleep from the previous night or multiple nights 📲Overuse of my phone… unfortunately it seems most of the human race experiences this As always, these are real situations and emotions, among others, that I encounter almost every day, and I’m sure some of you experience this from time to time, too. However, there are days when I feel like I’m the only one who experiences these struggles.

There are times when I sink into a pattern of staying up late at night and waking up late in the day. And then, after having gone through this pattern, I have less energy, I feel worthless, vulnerable, irrational, afraid, and empty.

On the other hand, there are times that I am motivated to get up and keep going, and the factors that help me become motivated depend on the day and circumstance. Those motivational moments hinge on a few key elements that exist in my life, which are:

✌👩🏻‍🤝‍🧑🏻Caring friends and family members
🕍✡📚📝Spiritual connection
💖💦🥖👌💪🦶🏃‍♂️🏀Necessary desire for physical health (water, food, exercise, flexibility, strength)
🧠💡Interest and passion to learn new things
🎧🎹📻🥁Music
Nature & Animals🌞😺🐶🐴🐕🐈🦌🐎🐑🐐🐇🐿🐓🐟🐠🐬🦜🐦🐧🦚🌳🌼
🤔🤩Having certain unique circumstances, abilities, and qualities
🤣😂Comedy
💌💬A wanting to share my thoughts and experiences with others
😇I am alive at this very moment for a certain purpose (I may be unaware of it)